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Monday, October 18, 2004
Been a long time since I came here already... More unexpected things have happened in my life...
Got myself a boyfriend... Yeah sure, people are surprised and no it's not who some of you think it is... Anywayz, we got together on the 14th of October, and strangely enough both him and I happen to have our birthdays falling on the 14th too, mine in Nov and his in April.
Well... Exams are coming up in merely a few days time... I can't wait for them to be over though... I want some rest...
Posted at 08:51 pm by LiJing
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Lolz, I guess if it weren't for Juan I wouldn't have tried to post another entry just of yet... Yearly updates huh?... Lolz... Interesting...
Well, now is the time of the semester where everyone in NYP is rushing for projects deadlines again and I'm no exception. Have a sem project due the end of this week and a C++ due in two weeks as well as a elective module's Introduction to Entrepreneurship report to hand up.
I'm the typical procrastinator so... Ya, it's about to get stressful in a few days time...
Anywayz, asides from school, of course there's still work, down at HD. F has gone back to his original outlet at Tangs and so left T and N to man the shop. Suddenly it's like I actually miss him when working, though why for, I have not a clue. Maybe it's his way of talking to me, all his lame jokes and such I guess.
We met up for a movie the other day and it led me to think that as a friend he would most certainly be alright to be around with, but as a partner, no way. He was after all a typical Leo, pride being his main problem, something I saw throughout the whole evening; I could never live with it.
As for N, I've learnt to work with him; annoy him alittle and he keeps his distance from you. Kinda works and I'm hoping it continues to work.
Anyway, regarding my previous entry, yeah! I've forgotten about that fella! Who cares if he calls or not, which he actually did right after I posted that entry, but nowadays I don't feel anything even when I see his name on my caller ID. That's good ya? But now I feel kinda stoned, no target anymore... No life... =X In a way.
Went out with my classmates after my work yesterday to celebrate one of their birthday; Jodi! We went to PS to have dinner, something that was actually very torturous since I somehow felt bloated and couldn't eat much. Later, after cutting cake and all, we wanted to watch a movie but the screening times were not good so we decided to go somewhere for a drink.
Feli suggested one of the places around One Fullerton and we ended up at Steward Anderson, all sitting in a row, facing each other. I spotted a cute waiter there! Lolz!~
Anyway a funny thing happened, officially I am still only under 18 so when they were checking our IDs and the lady in charge came to mine, somehow she couldn't make out my age and had to ask the cute waiter. He actually replied that I was 18 going on 19. o_O! Of course I didn't mind, but I did wonder why they would actually make such a mistake. 2004-1986=19? Lolz~ Oh well...
Ordered a Cosmopolitan, a drink made up of Vodka and cranberry juice. Very nice drink, I'd recommend it hahaz~ As it happens, I got Feli to get his name off his nametag since from where I was sitting the lighting was horrible. Hey Kel, he has the same name as you! Kelvin! Lolz!!~
Sadly though, had to leave early cause my best bud had to meet a friend and I didn't get anymore chances to talk to him =X
This leads me to remember that stupid cab driver whom annoyed me to no end. Argh! Horrible attitude and rude behaviour! I took down his licence plate number and he will, rest assured, be receiving a complain from yours truly. Hah!
Posted at 06:42 pm by LiJing
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Haiz... Been a long time since I last blogged right? =X Hehe sorry ya... *SHeEpIsH LooK*
Anywayz, Juan's in HD too!!! Yeah boi! How was your second day as of today? Really a pity you didn't come to Hilton but instead chose HV, but I guess the location's better ba...
Some things have been happening in my life, got me quite preoccupied... I must have been spacing out quite a lot lately, luckily no one's noticed. =X
He's stopped calling and messaging, kind of suddenly, for no reason too. I want to message him, but my pride's in the way. Can't understand what pride has to do with this right? I don't know how to explain though. As the days pass, it gets harder and harder. I think about him and think up excuses and reasons for him to have just broken all contact with me. But I can't fool myself, he's gone...
F and N have been vying for my attention lately it's comical. Sometimes I wonder what they are actually thinking about. But in the end, I put it down to them, just being guys.
Common tests are around the corner, next week to be exact, haven't exactly started on my revision, but I promise that I will tomorrow. =)
Somehow, I just can't seem to concentrate on anything. The event keeps surfacing in my mind. I want so much to cry...
Posted at 11:41 pm by LiJing
Friday, July 23, 2004
Something's wrong with me. Nowdays even though I attend classes, I cannot concentrate at all while the lecturers are teaching. I just stare blankly at the front and realise after the lecture that I have not been listening at all. The same goes for labs, I have no idea what has been happening for the past labs and have to resort to copying from others. This will not do at all.
I have been losing my appetite too; I only eat when the others eat but I don't feel hungry at all. Well, this has only been happening for the past 3 days so I'll see how it goes in a few more days.
I feel sad...
Posted at 06:16 pm by LiJing
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Someone... Tell me what I'm doing...
I went out with N after work today, I think that was a big mistake. I should have known when he kept saying weird things during work. We decided to watch a movie and settled on Visitors, which, by the way is kind of a stupid show. Anywayz, it was a scary experience, he couldn't keep his hands to himself and I almost slapped him. Sheesh, I've heard of guys like him but never did I ever think I'd meet one like him. Now I wonder how I'm going to face him next time. Why the hell did I suggest watching a movie? *Bashes head*
I have no idea why I'm typing this either, I guess I just want to remind myself of this stupid mistake and to warn myself never to go to the movies with guys who behave like him.
I'm going crazy...
Posted at 12:28 am by LiJing
Sunday, July 18, 2004
I went to OCC today again, this time for an fc meeting. I must say it's funny having a meeting in a ktv room but then again, it's the first time I've ever attended any sort of fc meetings so ya... Even so, it wasn't the meeting itself I was there for, perhaps more for the hope that I might meet him?
He had said that he would drop by later when I had told him I was going down. My hopes were dashed when I saw that there was to be a private function that day which meant that he most likely wouldn't be going down. Not unless he wanted to watch a dozen giggly girls chat about their favourite boybands.
It was 515 when Xuan and I reached the OCC and 820 when the so called meeting ended. Nana asked me to have dinner with her and we went off to find her mother at Par lounge. It turned out her dad was there too and we went to a yacht club owned by the navy or something like that for dinner. The food was not bad but the service was terrible. Ordering a cup of ice takes half an hour and when Nana's dad asked for his coffee, it took them another half and hour to return and tell him that the coffee machine was spoilt, then 15 minutes later, after he had ordered tea instead, the waitress said that the machine was fixed and finally sent the coffee 10 minutes later. God!!! The meal took 2 hours at least!
Throughout, Nana's mother kept teasing me about Eric and even smsed him and Alan, telling them that they were having dinner with me. Alan replied first of course, not surprisingly, and gave his usual funny reply, he loved me and all that. Then she started saying that Eric was slow, lolz! I agree of course, *shEePiSh LooK*.
It turned out that Eric and Alan were together with the usual gang excluding Darren and they were pondering where to go. Nana's mother suggested for them to come down and come down they did, 1 hour later. =.=|||
During dinner I had been wondering how to get home but when I heard that they were coming down I felt relief at first, then wondered if Eric would be willing to send me home again; it's really literally from west to east for him to get home after sending me.
When they decided to leave after all that drinking and smoking, Nana asked how I would get home and straight away they pointed him out, I guess it was only normal, he had after all sent me home before. When we were walking out of the place, Choong started chatting with me and Alan called from the back for him to get away from "Eric's girlfriend", a change from his usual joke that I was his girlfriend since his actual girlfriend, LiLing was there too, or at least, a girl he liked, I think. I turned to watch his reaction but he just laughed, not much of a hint.
Nana and her parents went home but the others wanted to eat and I followed along, without much choice though and it felt strange how the others thought it natural for me to get into Eric's car while the rest scrambled into the other cars; there were 3 cars altogether and 9 of us.
We went to a 24/7 prata stall and halfway through Jeffery started stressing, getting the other guys to stress with him. Apparently he had been jokingly smsing a girl with those endearment words like dear, darling and all that and she suddenly asked what he meant and where she stood with him. It seemed that they thought I was too young to know and started conversing in cantonese, not bothering to ask if I understood. I had a look of confusion on my face since they hadn't told me what was going on but I understood their conversations pretty well.
Eric would stop halfway while laughing at Jeffery to explain hazily that Jeffery had played with fire and it had exploded in his face and I would raise an eyebrow while nodding. At one point Jeffery asked the other guys what he should reply the girl such that the current relationship would still remain the same in cantonese, meaning not mere friends but not lovers either and I shot him a line, "I think that you shouldn't play with her feelings." He immediately accused Eric of telling me what was happening. I couldn'y help laughing at their expressions when I said I understood canto and had been listening to their conversation since the start. Lolz! ^_^
Tsk, anyway at around 215am they finally decided to leave and Eric sent me back. He kept saying that I was still young and when I reached his age I would know alot more about this world. Uh huh... =.= When he saw me to my doorstep I told him I felt guilty for letting him go all the way here and he said he didn't mind. Really?... *RaIseD EyEbRow* Haiz, I guess it'll never feel normal no matter how many times he does it.
Posted at 05:29 am by LiJing
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Complains. *Warning - Don't read if you have something better to do*
It's been a week and a day since my last entry. School's started and I should say all's well? The class hasn't changed much but we have new people in different modules and so have more friends I guess. Taking a new elective module, Introduction to Entrepreneurship and it seems fun enough but sadly I was appointed the leader and it doesn't look very enticing.
I decided on a new approach, to everything. Attend all classes, change my appearance, maintain my cool, take jokes lightly. I wanted this semester to be different and I guess perhaps it is. Managing well with my attendance so far, classmates are finding my change in appearance a mild surprise but they'll get over it sooner or later, I've only gotten angry twice since the start of school which is a vast improvement from my everyday relapse and I haven't gotten mad at jokes with me at centerstage so far, if I remember correctly. I guess life's good so far.
Every week we have tuesday off because of night classes on monday and I'm loving the extra day off despite only managing to laze around if I'm not working on that day which is so today. Woke up at 230pm today and taking into account that I actually slept at 3+ the night before I'd say its a good change from waking up at 6+ in the evening like usual. Yeah, you'd think I was a pig but I've been worse.
I'll only be working on Sunday this week and I over the moon about the changes, even though No Work = No Income. Was so sick of work when I went to work on Sunday last week that I actually slacked and let my colleague do more then me =X, regrettable of course, but not to be repeated.
Currently, I have this heavy load that I want to get off my chest. While I may not be showing it at all in school, certain classmates have been getting to me, or more specifically, a certain classmate.
Warning - the following passages will be complains and all things hateful. I am what I am, and I think like that all the time. Don't read if you mind.
In the first week of school she mentioned that she had met a guy who was a friend of mine. It didn't seem a big deal to me at first and I didn't mind sharing stories with her about the guy until she started making it seem as though she knew that guy well even though she had only met him, say, twice?
It wasn't jealousy since I barely knew him myself, only meeting him perhaps 3 or 4 times when with Nana because he was working at OCC. I would probably not have remembered him at all if she hadn't brought him up and surprisingly enough she had met him through her cousin if I remember correctly. I guess the world is small and smaller yet is Singapore. What I found to be annoying was her constant need to bring him up as though both of us knew him very well. Well, I could accept it if she wanted to seem that close to him but there was no need to try and drag me in as well was there? Was it such a big deal knowing him anyway?
He, a certain Kelvin, (No, not you Kel lolz) had once sent me home from OCC before on his bike and that had been the first time I had met him. She said that he had told her about the incident and started telling me all that he had told her, nothing much made sense to me since I didn't know him well until she started on about Nana, saying that he had said that he was her tutor which was true. What finally put me off was the way she spoke as though she knew Nana personally, going "Justina this, Justina that." All that when Nana didn't even know who she was and when she hadn't even met Nana before.
When that happened I had thought, why the need to make yourself sound so... well connected? Like she was trying to make it seem as if she knew more people then she actually did.
Anyway, I forgot about the incident after that day and I had thought that she wouldn't bring it up anymore, little did I know the next day she mentioned that she was going to meet her cousin and Kelvin for a movie and asked if I wanted to go along too. I asked why and she said since I knew him why not. I made it clear once more that I didn't exactly know him and she laughed, saying that I had already rode on his bike which must make us more then mere acquaintances and I forced a smile before changing the subject. Like I mentioned before, we had only met each other for the first time that time and I saw no need to make it sound so big.
Yesterday she declared excitedly that she had gone to OCC the night before, on sunday and that an Alfred had brought her there. Whoopdeedoo, I thought, wow, big deal. And started asking me if Eric was who she thought he was, trying to describe him. Apparently she hadn't bothered asking that Alfred since she got the description wrong. Then she moved on to how funny Nana's mother was, telling me every single detail of their encounter like what Nana's mother said, what she replied and stuff. Her excited talk didn't exactly interest me seeing how I knew that Nana's mother loved to chat with everyone and then she went on to tell me what I already knew, like how many children there was in her family, how cute Nana's sister was and more.
I was visibly bored with the topic but S seemed not to notice and would have continued going on if another classmate hadn't change the subject. From what she had said I would have thought that she had met Nana already, but an sms to her told me that Nana hadn't even know she was there until much later when she recalled a girl who had been at OCC with Alfred. I still didn't know who Alfred was but that didn't bother me too much. S then asked if I knew who was Samuel; someone I had seen only once and hadn't talked to...
Nana eventually got more worked up about it then me and in the end I had to calm her down instead. =.= And I thought I was the angry one. She said that I should brag back at S about the people I knew at OCC because I knew more of them then her but of course I didn't do that. Throughout I couldn't help wondering why S kept behaving as though she was so well, popular? Was there the need to sound as if you knew many people? It didn't matter in the end since you were after all telling your stories to your classmates, people who didn't even know those people you were talking about.
She sounded desperate to know more people and I may sound bitchy but this is exactly what I observed. She would call guys' names out when we were walking along the school's walkway and then stop to chat with them. Once, she even called to a guy and asked him if he was going for a lecture later, saying that she would sign for him if he wasn't going. Uh... And that was the second time she had seen him after meeting him at Lab in the morning. Very chummy huh?
In a lecture that same day, another new classmate for that module came up to chat with me as I was the assistant class rep since the class rep was never around and she later came over to ask me who that guy was, what was him name and what we spoke about. Might as well ask me what his favourite colour was, where he stayed, what's his hobby, right?! She sounded guy crazy!
*SigHz*
And just an hour ago she asked if I wanted to go and watch a movie with Alfred, her and Kelvin tomorrow. What? Again? I didn't give her an actual answer since I didn't find the idea of us going out very... exciting?
A couple of minutes ago, Kelvin smsed me asking if I wanted to go watch a movie and even said he would fetch me. What is the meaning of this?! I knew that S had something to do with this and viola, he agreed with me. =.= Does she have nothing better to do?! Bah!
Damn, now I have no idea what to reply. I'm gonna try to sleep. Until the next time, when I have more complaints. Lolz...
Posted at 10:59 pm by LiJing
Monday, July 05, 2004
Clutching my side as I type this entry; seems that I'm having gastric or its equal. Just came back from OCC, a country club where Nana always goes.
Went to find Wen today with my sis and her boyfriend at Springvale and ate at Pizza Hut before having deserts of ice cream. Sheesh, was really full.
Then went back home for a while before going out again with the family for dinner. An in between break of 2 hours no less. I think it may just be indigestion I'm suffering from right now.
Cried during dinner because of my dad's words. I asked for barley and he interpreted it as ma ti or chestnut drink. I always drank barley in the past at that place but trust him to forget that. It wasn't so much as the mistake in ordering the drink, it was more of what he said when i realised he had ordered the wrong drink when it came. He actually said, "This is what happens when you don't speak clearly."
Hello! I was speaking clear as the day! My sister heard me too, he was the one who didn't hear correctly and yet said such a thing. I cried tears of anger and would have not eaten had my sister not put food onto my plate. Anger can fill a person up really easily.
Later we went to Thomson Plaza which was nearby and I just kept having the urge to just up and leave, get in a cab and go home on my own. Nana called and asked me to go down to the OCC and I thought, why not, since I'd be stuck at home if I didn't go anyway. The only problem was getting there, it's in Yishun and I'm at Thomson which isn't exactly nearby.
I lowered my pride and asked my dad if he could fetch me to which he agreed; he must have felt guilty. But 5 minutes later Alan called and said he'd fetch me so I told the family to go on home without me. Yishun was out of the way anyway.
We always go to the Karaoke lounge at OCC and I'd met Alan when I was there; he was a friend of Nana and I've always found it funny how come in the whole place there's only 4 kids and all the rest are adult males excluding their mother.
It's really nice how the guys there all try their best to make me fit in by chatting with me and all that and Nana's mother is really cool too, she likes to play match make for me and almost all the other guys there but she's just joking and we know it and she tells some pretty funny jokes too.
Well, stayed there till closing and finally Eric sent me home. This is the second time already anyway, and we chatted throughout despite me almost falling asleep every few seconds hahaz.
He's a nice guy but perhaps a little too quiet. He makes an effort to start conversations which is very obvious but I dunno... I think I'm thinking too much lolz!~ He'll be coming over to my poly in August for 3 months to take a short course and I guess it'll be nice to see another familiar face there.
Anywayz, school's starting in 10 hours time and I think it's time for me to sleep, still haven't bought my books and all that. Bah! Won't the pain just go away!
Posted at 01:42 am by LiJing
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Finally saw my timetable today. Thanks HL for the effort and all your help in figuring out my timetable for me. Our school's email system is so cock up that all of us *In my class* couldn't enter then system till today I think, at least that's so for me. Actually, not that seeing the timetable finally was any help. All were in cute little module numbers and I understood none of it. I remember the first time when we could click on the numbers and get a description, or was that for some other programs? I don't know, what I do know is that not knowing anything is kind of getting on my nerves. Ah well, we'll see it as it goes I guess.
Spent a day lazing around the house on my day off and staring at the computer screen. I swear it's caught a virus, it does the strangest things like lagging at the yahoo webpage. Hm... Wonder if it has anything to do with me leaving it on for the past 1 week. Kidding! Well, it has been left on for the past week but I let it rest for an hour or so before surfing the net today okay... Urm, though I might have left out a small detail that the connection was down during that time and I couldn't do much anyway. Lolz, fine, I like to torture my computer. So how? Whatcha gonna do?
Hee... I think I'm going nuts, talking to myself now. Haz... Will be going for a movie tomorrow... Have yet to watched Around the world in 80 days and doubt I'd ever get around to it but tomorrow I'll be watching Windstruck! Hee~~ It looked funny in the previews and I can't wait to watch it...
As for now, I think I'll try to type out a chapter of my dusty and almost forgotten fanfic. Haha! I finally admitted it somewhere at last. I write fanfics. So, sue me. Lolz, pardon my nuttiness.
Well, I'd best be going then, or I'd never get anything done~
Posted at 01:19 am by LiJing
Sunday, June 27, 2004
School's starting soon... Not as soon as I'd like it to though, which is much later then most of the other polys... You'd think I was crazy since I can't wait for school to start but it's nothing about craziness... More of desperado... I can't stand working another day, absolutely can't wait for work to be put on hold.
The biggest problem now is still the lack of in-charges. And now, Wen will be leaving for another outlet, just because one of our bosses think that it'll be better for her there since that place is nearer. E just doesn't get it, he thinks that it's HW that Wen's sick of, but well, of course I know better since she tells me all the time; it's HD she's sick of. We have sick bosses, downright sick and dumb ones.
I have my reasons for saying that. L's this big a**hole with the penchant for eye candy and he was down at HW today for what seemed like hours. Well, it actually was hours, he was there since 2pm and when I went down at 430 to find Wen, he was still there. Not forgetting that even after we left the place after dinner at 6pm, he was still lazing around like that paid-to-do-nothing boss that he is.
Anywayz, I'm thinking the reason he was there was because of this new girl, P who came about 2 weeks ago. Can you believe it? He sat there for 3 hours plus and had the nerves to say that he thought P should be promoted just because she was hardworking. My god!!! All of us there knew that she was not hardworking at all, choosing to leave work to us most of the time unless she can help it and we had to listen to that crap... She did not even know how to open the simpliest coffee container and had needed the 'ever-so-helpful' L to help. Not to mention that he hadn't mind when she did not serve his coffee out to him and he had to take it himself. Of course, mistakes will be accepted since he thought she was 'hardworking'.
Sheesh, with a management like this, it's no wonder people are quiting all the time. But still, people quit, people join. Hm... More like, people fall into traps, HD traps. Wen refused to sign the appraisal form for P since she didn't even know the basics much less had the ability to be a supervisor. Moreover, if P was to be promoted despite the way she works, I'd think all the other staff should be promoted too since she's considered the worst if there was to be a comparison.
After this incident, Wen is more determined then ever to find another job and leave HD as fast as she can. We're having a new manager this coming monday but I'm not bothered. I do hope that he's good, unlike some others...
Hm... I do so have the tendency to bitch about others. Not that any of this is untrue. God, I hate that L. Hope he rots in ****. Hey it rhymes!
Bah... Anyway, it's confirmed since F called just now, L signed the promotion letter and that's that. Ew... Let's see how she's gonna live up to her title now...
Well, on to other things, I wanted to watch Around the world in 80 days!!!! My parents and younger sis went!!! SObz... You know what irks me most? The fact that my dad sent me a sms this morning asking if I wanted to watch and my handphone was off, because I was trying to avoid F with his daily wake up call. ARGH!!!!! Not fair!!! Why does my family like to buy tickets in advance?! The movie was for the night and my dad had to get it in the morning!!! *SulKz* I'm officially down. =(
Posted at 12:22 am by LiJing
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